Pseudologia Fantastica

Dec. 12th, 2025 07:00 pm
[personal profile] michaelboy


In a twist of the wrist
or even a lemon
you may fabricate
your life as it sits
but it wouldn’t
be as striking
as what you are
or just that far
and how it fits


It seems we have all run into this in a few folks over the course of our years and this seems it really isn’t something meant to harm anyone but maybe more a mechanism of internal protection. It wholly reminds me that we are all weak in ways, and all need others whether we admit it or not.

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If a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friend’s or of thine own were.
From: Mediation XVII, John Donne, 1624

That went well

Dec. 12th, 2025 03:20 pm
[personal profile] brickhousewench
I finally gave Jenny her Christmas present today. The Cheese Advent Calendar that I ordered arrived two weeks ago, the afternoon of our last massage appointment. I almost called her that day and asked if she was still in the office to drive down and drop it off for her, but I figured, I see her every week, I'll drop it off next week. So I stashed them (I bought two, one for myself) between the storm door and the slider off my sunroom. Because there wasn't room in the fridge when they arrived. I didn't want to leave them in the car, because they could freeze. But I figured that the sunroom gets sunlight, but would still be cool, but hopefully not freezing cold. Especially right next to the door. Anywhoodle....

I couldn't deliver it last week, because Jenny called out sick. She said she was sick for a couple of days, which is very rare for her. So finally got to drop it off today. I gave it to her right when I walked in the door, and she was THRILLED! Everyone came out to see what she was so excited about. It's really fun when you find a gift that you know the recipient is really going to love. And she was SO psyched about getting a whole buncha cheese. So, perfect gift! Go me!

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Dec. 12th, 2025 03:17 pm
[personal profile] adore
There's a Cozy Fantasy Book Blast happening, and I picked up Good Neighbours by Stephanie Burgis, and Tsumiko and the Enslaved Fox by Forthright. Speaking of cozy, I had a conversation on the FaRo discord about project-hopping, because while I know I'll return to angsty paranormal romance in future projects and am committed to writing Book Two of Bloodhunt Academy right now, I need to have a cozy fantasy writing project ongoing alongside. The cozy dragon romantasy is what I'm eyeing right now. While they're two different vibes, I'm going to keep them on the same pen name (I looked at my collection of book ideas and realised I'm not a writer who can come up with similar things for long in the first place).
We've been menstruating so many centuries, and yet. )
How does one go through life WITHOUT feminine rage? Given everything?

Five Random Things Makes a Post

Dec. 11th, 2025 09:02 pm
[personal profile] brickhousewench
[I wrote some of this up last week and I just keep forgetting to finish it and post it!}

So after all was said and done, we got probably two to three inches of snow a week ago. It’s hard to tell, because it snowed all day, changed to rain for a little while, then got cold enough to snow again.

I’m glad that I didn’t brush off the car last Monday (the 1st), it’s always easier in a snow/rain/snow storm to wait until everything is done to clear the cars. Because if you clear off the first layer of snow, all you end up with is a layer of ice with maybe some snow on top. And then instead of brushing off the car, I’m chiseling out the car.

***

Because I currently own two cars, I had twice as much snow clearing to do when the plow guy showed up. I NEED to dig out the title for the Honda, and clear the reenacting stuff out of the trunk so that I can donate it. I’d meant to do it before the snow started flying… But clearly I did not. And I don’t want to have to keep clearing off two cars. So time to buckle down and deal with the Honda.

***

One of the Engineering Managers had to duck out of a meeting last Wednesday (Dec. 3d) for a family emergency. It turned out that his 16 year old son, who just got his driver’s license earlier this year, had totaled the car. The kid’s fine, the car, not so much. He posted photos, and the kid skidded off the road and wrapped the front end of the car around a tree. EM said that if he’d had anything to say about it, the kid would not have been driving in the snow. But his mother (EM’s ex-wife) let the kid drive, and he was speeding. Personally, if I had a teenage boy who was still a novice driver, I would not have let him on the road during that particular storm, because it was a mix of rain/sleet, and sure to be slick out. I’m just glad the kid wasn’t hurt. It’s an expensive lesson though.

***

I finally got the second of my two “Docathon” projects into a pull request this Tuesday, a week after I got the first one into a pull request. I’m honestly really thrilled with what AI was able to pull out of the code base when I asked it to review all the error messages and write some troubleshooting documentation for how to resolve each error. It gave me much more detailed results than I was expecting. Since we’ve had lots of requests for improved troubleshooting, I’m excited to get this published for our users. I just have to nag my developers to review two big hoking documentation updates before I can get them merged and published.

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After a lengthy conversation about cheese with my massage therapist a couple of weeks ago, Facebook showed me an ad for a cheese advent calendar from the Cheese Brothers. On a whim I bought two, one for myself and one for Jenny, my massage therapist. I couldn't wait, I cheated and peeked inside the box. The contents are:

* Hot pepper cheese curds
* Old Smokey smoked Gouda
* Honey sriracha Gouda
* Green onion Cheddar
* Chocolate chip cheese ball (Havarti)
* Reserve 8 year aged Cheddar
* Scorpion pepper Gouda
* Apple wood smoked Alpine style Adelheid
* Classic cheese curds
* Italian style Fratello (Inspired by Asiago and Parmesan)
* Parmesan Gruyere Yodel
* Dill Havarti

They all sound delicious. The only one I might not eat would be the Scorpion pepper Gouda, but that really depends on how hot it actually turns out to be. I plan on getting started on a couple of them this weekend. But as punishment for peeking, the cardboard box gave me a paper cut. It’s always the little boo-boos that hurt the worst. =(

Toys with Sharp Tabs

Dec. 11th, 2025 07:11 pm
[personal profile] michaelboy
My mom used to buy things at a ”Swap Shop” in town. I never went to it with her, but I think it was held in the municipal building a few times a year and was some sort of mega-multi-person garage sale – way before the internet, Ebay, or Craigslist.

I remember a wood and leather burning set that was missing most of the specialty tips but did have a few leathers left. One in particular was circular and featured an American Indian printed in red ink. It was already half-traced with the burning iron. I imagined that some other kid must have gotten tired of burning it.

I also had a painted metal Gas Station/Parking Garage assembled and held together with little twisty metal tabs. It had a car elevator with a string winch that would allow you to bring the car up into the parking area and then send it back down to the first floor via a spiral ramp. It was missing a few pieces but had to be one of my favorite toys, ever. I wanted to go inside, use the pay phone, and smell how it smelled.



If the Consumer Product Safety Commission had existed then, I wonder if exposed heating elements, sharp edges or lead-based metal paint would have mattered.

Well that's a relief

Dec. 11th, 2025 01:49 pm
[personal profile] brickhousewench
I was afraid that I've been a little too spicy in our recent department Slack conversations about AI. But I just had a "coffee chat" with one of my coworkers, and he spontaneously commented that he was impressed with how diplomatic I've been in some of our conversations. So that's a huge relief. I was worried that I was being testy/grumpy/curmudgeonly. Well, I have been all those things, but apparently I'm also managing to be polite about it outside my own head. So that's a relief.

Sentience in Longing

Dec. 7th, 2025 08:12 pm
[personal profile] michaelboy
Below what I know
wants to find its way
around your hips
simply by touching.

It could be your shoulder
leaning into mine,
or even how good you smell
in a quiet morning.

Where have we gone?

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AI kefluffle at work

Dec. 5th, 2025 12:31 pm
[personal profile] brickhousewench
I am so pissed off at one of our Documentation Managers right now.

She is a bit of a contrarian. She’s admitted that when someone says something, her first instinct is to jump in and argue for the opposite side. And sometimes that makes her especially annoying.

One of my European coworkers, who is also someone that I have trouble understanding, posted a blog post today. Now, some back story, when I say that I have trouble understanding her, it’s because even after three years, I barely know her. She misses most of our team meetings, because they fall right when she has to pick up her kids from school. OK, no problem. But we were actually on the same team for a bit, and she also missed a lot of those meetings. I finally wondered why I felt like I knew so little about her when we both work on database products and should be in a lot of the same Slack channels, yet I never see her posting. I went in to Slack and searched for all posts from her and it turns out that she only posts about once a week. And this goes back for months and months. So she’s a complete enigma to me, even though we’ve worked together for three years.

Back to coworker's blog post. She’s extolling the wonders of using an AI agent and how you can train it to think like you.

A documentation agent doesn’t wait for you to tell it what to do next. It’s not just “AI that writes with you.” It’s a system - a programmable version of your own brain - that already knows your process, your standards, your templates, your preferred IA patterns, and so on.

An agent in this sense is your AI twin, a codified version of your judgment, your craft, and your workflow, embedded directly in your repo, ready to activate any time a new feature, product area, or urgent request lands on your plate.

We’ve moved beyond the era of prompt engineering to the era of building AI systems - and for technical writers, that means creating your own documentation agent; a personalized AI twin that reflects how you think, how you structure information, and how you write.


She talks in very vague terms about training an AI, but gives no specific examples. So I asked in the Slack thread where she posted for some tips, or examples, or if I could see her copy of her “personal agent” file.

And I was told to just try it for myself.

Um, the reason why I’m asking is because it’s not clear how to do this myself! How is a Large Language Model supposed to know anything about how I learn, my 20+ years experience as a technical writer, or my personal workflows?

There was some back and forth conversation (thankfully a few other people seemed to be just as baffled as I was) and I finally posted

Other coworker: ”I honestly feel like [coworker’s] blog is further down the journey than I currently am, which is ok.”

Me: Same. I feel like sometimes when we're sharing info someone assumes that everyone else understands the skills they're using, when some of us haven't even been exposed to them yet. For example, how to get info into an AI chat. I can save things off the web that I want to dump into AI, it's easy to download Google Docs, but how are people getting things out of Slack and into VSCode or Cursor? Is it as simple as copy/paste into a file, ugly as that may be? Or is there some elegant trick that I just haven't learned yet? Same with issues, I haven't had a chance to play with issues yet. Do you have to download/save the issue, or can you just say "read issue 12345 and suggest how to resolve it"?

Manager: we've figured this stuff out by trying and experimenting though, not being taught by anyone... like just try stuff and see what works, then what works better

Me: How does refusing to tell me what you've learned help me here? How is it efficient for all of us we have to learn the same thing 20 separate times? This is the first week in a very long time that I've had time to play with AI, and I've gotten a lot done. But I haven't had time to try everything that I've wanted to. Saying "Just try it" doesn't find me time to do it.

Manager: because the most important learning is the journey not the result with AI

Which is utter bullshit, because we’re being pressured to produce results.

I've spent the past week experimenting with AI because it's Hackathon week, and that's what the docs team was working on. But I haven't had time to try everything because there's only so much time in a day.

Adaptation

Dec. 5th, 2025 12:40 pm
[personal profile] adore
Processing family stuff )
I finished A Curse So Dark And Lonely and... guess what y'all... I ship the prince and the commander //faceplams //shrugs

I meannn. SPOILERS but likeeeee.

The commander is the only one left by the prince's side, and stays loyal to the prince even after the prince transforms into the Beast and kills most of the commander's family. Stays loyal to the prince even when the prince attacks him in Beast form, keeps trying to get himself hurt in the prince's stead, and tries to fake his own death to avoid interfering in the prince's future...

The prince is all "sobs I'm so mean to you why don't you hate me" and the commander is all "I gave you my word, my prince" ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

The commander has risked himself to protect the Beastly prince at each transformation, season after season, and this book tried to convince me that a girl who was trapped in the Beast's castle in just ONE season gave the prince True Love?? Excuse me, do you see the commander and the prince??? THAT'S TRUE LOVEEEE

Ahem. Anyway I borrowed the second book in the trilogy, A Heart So Fierce And Broken, because obviously I need to ship the prince and commander more. The first book ended with the commander faking his own death and the prince being heartbroken, though, so I'm just hoping they don't stay separated throughout the second book, I don't have the patience for that.

In other news, I renewed my BookBrush subscription, which pinches, but I need it for my indie author projects. I also renewed my premium Dreamwidth account (yay for the points bonus!) and deleted a few icons. I'm thinking of moving my monthly payments for my author website to yearly, as well. We shall see. I was looking into moving my author newsletter from Substack to PencilBooth, which is also free. But PencilBooth doesn't have a welcome email, just a welcome message. And I can't make do with just a welcome message when I need to remind people who download my reader magnets from Bookfunnel promos who I am. I need pictures and links, not just a paragraph of text. So still using Substack for now.

My tummy hurts for hours every day and I'm glad I'm not working, but I want to write more than I am now. I want to rest and then write, not just rest and then rest some more. The FaRo discord I'm part of does FaRoWriMo every month, in which you choose your word count goal for the month and track it together on a collective spreadsheet where we each get a column (and talk and support each other in the dedicated discord channel) and I'm considering modifying my goal. I want to sigh, but I also feel fortunate about being able to rest, but I guess disappointment and relief can coexist.

Wanting and Having

Dec. 4th, 2025 06:21 pm
[personal profile] michaelboy
When I was in my single digits, I begged and begged for a pair of cowboy boots. I am not even sure why I wanted them, but I kept on this for months. Mom and Dad eventually relented and bought me a pair of fine-looking (with sewn-in tooling) boots. Within a week, I had lost one of them at the Dairy Dream where it was discarded – never to be seen again.

I must not have loved them as much as I had once thought.

: "After a time, you may find that 'having' is not so pleasing a thing after all as 'wanting.' It is not logical, but it is often true"
- From: 'Amok Time', Spock to Stonn, Star Trek TOS
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