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I find myself back in a familiar place. Where I give too much and don't get as much in return. But I get some, which is enough to keep me hanging on. How long will it take for the string to finally break?

Is showing up inconsistently still showing up? Do I expect too much from people?

But then I find myself in these moments filled by other people who I wouldn't expect to fill the inevitable void, and I think that maybe I've been looking in the wrong places the whole time. I think I'm just an asshole who expects the worst from people, and it's my own fault for feeling like shit.