tired of having the same day

These days I spend most of my waking hours supine, distracting myself until I can fall asleep and repeat it all again. The worse my quality of sleep gets, the more vivid my dreams are. I had about 4 last night that felt like they happened over the course of several days, each one more nonsensical than the last.

A few days ago, I had an earth-shattering dream about losing my mother, and dying myself. I woke up crying, which was a weird feeling.

Living feels a lot harder these days, even though there's things I'd rather be doing, I can't bring myself to do them. I can barely bring myself to write. I just hope that the next few months go by fast enough.